ShopDreamUp AI ArtDreamUp
Deviation Actions
Literature Text
Starting Again.
I stare at myself in the mirror, seldom giving any facial expressions to my backwards self, apart from the often downward glance at the new me. I have changed my self, my look.
I used to be so happy, I was blinded by love, the world was hazy and soft. Until the fog of passion all cleared and all the lies and betrayal was sharp and hit me like a pound of bricks. He only wanted as a trophy, as a boasting toy. I hated myself and him and the foolish game that was. But I loved him and he made me feel like I was beautiful. I tried everything to find that blind happiness again. I hurt myself and others to try to get lost like I was, but nothing worked. It only made me realize what a mess I was. I had three inches of make-up shielding my face, my hair dyed a sickly blonde and skin a dusty orange. It wasn't me.
But I will start again. I will find someone who loves me for what I am. A pale, dark-haired girl who would choose playing catch with my dad than spend a day being pulled towards my boy so he can show me off.
I will start again. No cleavage, no skirts, no heels. Just me.
I stare at myself in the mirror, seldom giving any facial expressions to my backwards self, apart from the often downward glance at the new me. I have changed my self, my look.
I used to be so happy, I was blinded by love, the world was hazy and soft. Until the fog of passion all cleared and all the lies and betrayal was sharp and hit me like a pound of bricks. He only wanted as a trophy, as a boasting toy. I hated myself and him and the foolish game that was. But I loved him and he made me feel like I was beautiful. I tried everything to find that blind happiness again. I hurt myself and others to try to get lost like I was, but nothing worked. It only made me realize what a mess I was. I had three inches of make-up shielding my face, my hair dyed a sickly blonde and skin a dusty orange. It wasn't me.
But I will start again. I will find someone who loves me for what I am. A pale, dark-haired girl who would choose playing catch with my dad than spend a day being pulled towards my boy so he can show me off.
I will start again. No cleavage, no skirts, no heels. Just me.
Suggested Collections
Featured in Groups
Yes, depression shiz. It's for a competition for this group: [link] And the theme was starting again, so this happened. Feedback would be awesome, because this is the first piece of literature that isn't fanfic xD
© 2013 - 2024 misunderstoodshark
Comments11
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
nice very deep